Friday, September 18, 2009
always & foreverr
marques houston; this song has slowwwly reached my itunes top 25 played. it is currently at number 18.. its quite the relaxing. i was reading my old blogs from 2008 and i realize that maybe i should take a bit of my own advice. ive been walking (even running) around in a circle. wasting my time on things that i already know, learned and experienced.
take it slow, take it eaasy. like sunday morning.
im really quite happy with myself right now. im excited to go back to school and get good grades, go to the gym and make new friends. as well as hangout with my bestiesss at school duh.
coco chanel. my role model, independent woman who has her own mind. she knows what she wants and doesnt rely on other people to get shiet done. she does not take the easy way out, her life was filled with dissappointments and heart break but she kept moving forward. she knew what was right even if her heart wanted to go the other way. i like that about her, she is so strong.
the little engine that could. toot tooot! chugga chugga choo chooo. keep moving forward -->
yezziirrr.
happpyness comes from within, you cannot rely on other people to make you happy. self-happyness is what i call it. mind over matter.
no one can make you feel stupid (or angry, sad, dissapointed, frustrated for that matter) unless YOU let them.
teeheee. fake a smile and get on with it. show no mercy, no weakness
man. i gotta think about what i want before i say it. i need to mean what i say. and back back back it up. the thing abt coco chanel i love is she always KNOWs what she wants.
oh how this makes me feel better, along with my new shoes, good friends and being at home lazzyyy. no need to go out, i think i was too busy to really think and reflect on my life. this is good.
i went to the doctor yesterday and got two shots. they were scary but the people were really nice. i always tend to give people the benefit of the doubt everyone on the world is nice which is COMPLETELY not true. there are people out there that want you to do bad. but i guess i havent met anyone like that. or im good at blocking peoples bad qualities out. positiveee.
eyes on the prize, cmon baby work it for me. nah nah nah mean diga mah jigg?
nooowz im bored. <3 later
-me
take it slow, take it eaasy. like sunday morning.
im really quite happy with myself right now. im excited to go back to school and get good grades, go to the gym and make new friends. as well as hangout with my bestiesss at school duh.
coco chanel. my role model, independent woman who has her own mind. she knows what she wants and doesnt rely on other people to get shiet done. she does not take the easy way out, her life was filled with dissappointments and heart break but she kept moving forward. she knew what was right even if her heart wanted to go the other way. i like that about her, she is so strong.
the little engine that could. toot tooot! chugga chugga choo chooo. keep moving forward -->
yezziirrr.
happpyness comes from within, you cannot rely on other people to make you happy. self-happyness is what i call it. mind over matter.
no one can make you feel stupid (or angry, sad, dissapointed, frustrated for that matter) unless YOU let them.
teeheee. fake a smile and get on with it. show no mercy, no weakness
man. i gotta think about what i want before i say it. i need to mean what i say. and back back back it up. the thing abt coco chanel i love is she always KNOWs what she wants.
oh how this makes me feel better, along with my new shoes, good friends and being at home lazzyyy. no need to go out, i think i was too busy to really think and reflect on my life. this is good.
i went to the doctor yesterday and got two shots. they were scary but the people were really nice. i always tend to give people the benefit of the doubt everyone on the world is nice which is COMPLETELY not true. there are people out there that want you to do bad. but i guess i havent met anyone like that. or im good at blocking peoples bad qualities out. positiveee.
eyes on the prize, cmon baby work it for me. nah nah nah mean diga mah jigg?
nooowz im bored. <3 later
-me
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
up up & awayyy
i miss ice skating. the only thing that i could really trust. im thinking about it now and i feel like crying. we went skating in singapore and my dad said that he loves seeing me skate. even with rentals on just skating, he says that its looks so natural when im on the ice. sometimes i wonder maybe its where i belong, and i wonder why i quit. was it really because of the SATS and grades? why did i give up something i loved so much so easily. i think the real reason i quit was because i didnt feel like i was progressing. after advancing so much in so little time i expected everything to come easily. ive learned that nothing in life comes easy, you gotta work for what you believe in. sometimes i think the only thing that ive ever truely loved is figure skating. im going to go sometime soon.
so theres this boy i dont know what to do about him. he makes me complicated. and i dont know if it is really worth it. why is it so hard for me to explain my feelings?
so theres this boy i dont know what to do about him. he makes me complicated. and i dont know if it is really worth it. why is it so hard for me to explain my feelings?
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