everytime you come around it just always messes me up. i think that i was happy before, but i dont actually know anymore. i have to get rid of this habit, put it in the past new year. i need to probably drink less and not play with my phone...
you can make it feel right, when you know that its wrong.
alll my feelings are always so wishy-washy. even like with small things i cant decide what i want to do. ive made up my mind. yesterday was the first time that i realized what i was doing, but i just did it anyways. i had a bit of control but not really.
truth number 1:
people are fucking selfish, i dont know why some people are so selfish. you call me a friend? then please, treat me like on. i do all this shit for people and i put up with a lot of bull shit. why do i have to be so nice. fuuck seriously i guess all people in the world (even me at sometimes i admit) are only looking out for their best interest. and also i hate being flaky. and i hate how people say one thing and just like ughhhhhh. waaaaaaah
i had so much to say, but i cant even say it now. idk im a messs. a wreck why am i so different LOL identity crisis. blog you are my new _______ ____. heeee he ehhe teeheeeehe damn it
why is it alwaysss i only want what i cant have. once i have it... its no fun no mo. i got isssues. ho hummm. okk welll.... this is a really pointless blog that didnt make me feel any better. i had some key points i was going to address but..... i forgot what they were. SO... YEAH maybe ill go home today. more later when i have more then 4 hrs of sleep in me. nap time.
