i'm so scared and never thought this could happen to me.
every night i pray that it isnt true or it cant happen but then reality hits me, have i been lying to myself? what if its true. what will happen to me. my future, us? everything changes. just when things are looking up, i have something new to worry about. who ever thought this would happen to me. please not let it be!! i have to wait a week. and on top of that probably another week.
god please. ill do anything. it was my mistake in the first place, but i feel like i have learned and become such a better person. ill do anything.
please just let this be me freaking out.
