up up & awayyy

i miss ice skating. the only thing that i could really trust. im thinking about it now and i feel like crying. we went skating in singapore and my dad said that he loves seeing me skate. even with rentals on just skating, he says that its looks so natural when im on the ice. sometimes i wonder maybe its where i belong, and i wonder why i quit. was it really because of the SATS and grades? why did i give up something i loved so much so easily. i think the real reason i quit was because i didnt feel like i was progressing. after advancing so much in so little time i expected everything to come easily. ive learned that nothing in life comes easy, you gotta work for what you believe in. sometimes i think the only thing that ive ever truely loved is figure skating. im going to go sometime soon.

so theres this boy i dont know what to do about him. he makes me complicated. and i dont know if it is really worth it. why is it so hard for me to explain my feelings?

break up to make up

once you care about someone you cant really stop caring about them. you just sort of just need to channel you energy into something else. something i'd like to call friendship. we'll see how this channeling of different energy will go. i have a feeling i am falling into the same trap with my eyes wide open. things never change, but there is always an optimist inside of me that refuses to be ignored.

why am i such a complicated person?
maybe i am just constantly over analyzing everything. but i really feel like i only want him, i cant imagine holding hand with anyone else for example. idk mang this is all bad :(

kk laterrss
zzamyyyszz

summer goals

-make hella bank
- meet new people. get over it
- work out get fit ( gym every other day at least)
- tan
- car
- get a better curfew.
- be organized
- get an A in deanza class.

KTHANKS BYE
i got a all B's this quarter idk if tahts good or not...

GOALS

Accounting 110
-Finish Chapter 14 & 19 by friday (all homework done)
-Review old midterms by Saturday afternoon
-Goal= 23/25 on the final
-Final Tuesday 8am

Econ 100b
-Finish homework by friday
-Review old midterms by saturday night
-Goal= Good Understanding of material
-Final 11am Wednesday

Marketing
-Finish ch 4-8 by saturday
-Finish the rest by monday
-Learn everything i missed.
-Final Thursday 8am

YES-LMFAO

im walking away and not looking back.

better today...

You are always alert and keenly observant. You are not truly satisfied with your everyday status and you are seeking fresh avenues which can give you the opportunity to prove your worth. You feel that there are still many barriers that stand between you and recognition - but one by one you will overcome them. Your tenacity is your one good point - like an English Bulldog, once you take the bite, you will seldom let go.

You are not be feeling so good at this time. Everything seems to be getting on top of you. What you need is a rest from all of the the present trials and tribulations in peaceful surroundings and with someone - male or female, it doesn't really matter - who can really understand you and appreciates your needs.

It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you'll have to make the best of things as they are.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

so what are we going to have

desert or disaster