i think i am going crazy.

okkk well

long hair dont care.. ;)

i love winter breakkk. AHH

never settle for less.

i misss figure skating. blood sweat and tears. but that was the closest i have ever felt to PERFECTION. minus getting a 100 on my accounting final. dayuum it feels good to be me <3

you know

how some days you just feel pretty? today is like that. im barely wearing makeup and i do not feel the need to. i wish i could feel like this everyday. went to the gym today. it was good. moms yelled at me and i yelled back. i hope she knows that i try very hard and that i dont like it when she says i dont do anything to help out. i should just kept my mouth shut.

we havnet yelled at each other in a while. its werid. ok well im going out now.

hair cut tmro..

maybe i will watch princess and the frog before the end of this week..i really want to go to the snow i wish i could do everything i want to do. there needs to be more time and i need to be a more efficient person. <3

ohhh fall quarter

whyy do you always screw me over. sigh oh well retail therapy has done its job for sure. i got this super cute dress today which im hopefully going to wear to new years. and wait for it...... chinese laundry heels for $15 hoolllllaa i have too many shoess but i HAD to get it. niggaz i need a job to fund the lifestyle i want to live. for reals. oh wellls. im super sleepy and break is pretty good. i want to watch the princess and the frog. oh bloggg, you are my new boyfriend whom i tell things to! you always listen which is nice :) pwahaha. ok im turning into a loser good bye 8)

i

fucking

hate

UGHHHH

got an F in public finance. WHAT THE GAY I WANT TO UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH

UGH UGH UHG WTFFFFFf. i am so fucking pisssed. this is bulll shit.

if i have to take that class im getinggg an A+ that is the stupidest class int he efffing world....

UGH PISSSSED OFFFFff

ANGRYYY

whew its ok

omg so gayyyyyyyy bye

dear self,

so what if it hurts me, so what if break down.

i need to keep my head up. i thought i was ready, but now i dont think so anymore. i need more time for myself. i need a break. ME TIME. everything happens so fast that i feel like i need to sit down and re evaluate. i was at a good stable place before but now im starting to feel like everything is crumbling down into the dirt. like how im putting so much into things and letting them effect how i feel about myself. i dont like this feeling. no one is going to bring me down.

i know that it sucks to feel lonely, but i need to stick out this feeling. i need to in some kind of sense re-discover myself before i can let anyone else in. this is so hard for me to describe. but i have been hurt before, kicked around, taken for granted and if anything i want to learn from that and not let the same thing happen. i understand that it was certain circumstances but, in the end it is up to me. its hard to walk away but sometimes it is the right thing to do. slowly, step by step. i need to overall be more independent. focus on other things and dont make other people my priorities.

ALSO on a side note, no more retail therapy..... unless uhoh... i find a nice dress or something, maybe some tights, and HM i wanted one more thing... a long cradigan/jacket thing. alsoooo.... shiettt no more shoes. and i want to get my nails done haha

byebye more later i think ima sleep semi early tonight..... baby sister is comming home. i cant waiiiiiiiit :D

welllll...

two can play at this game ;)

trust. looks can be deceiving.

rah rah rahhhhh bad romancee. roh roh rohhhh schoeeeppy

mhore later

nao.

just so you know, at this game. i always win, alllwayyys meheheh.