ive been thinking. haha i get this feeling in the pit of my stomach sometime. i dont like it being there and not being able to explain what it is (aka, its not that i am bloated, i need to poop or hunger) this is a completely different feeling. it feels like being alone. completely alone. i dont know why i feel like this at times and am completely fine if not happy being all alone. i feel jumpy all the time. whenever i get an im text or call im like, oh is that you calling me. but its never you any more. i dont know if i only want you or not but everytime i think about it, it makes me sad. i cant figure out if i get sad because im lonely or because i realize that i actually really liked you and sometimes i wish that you were still here. but other times im glad to beable to do my own thang. no baby sittting.
ok i feel better now already or maybe the sleepyness is really getting to me. this other boy. i dont really like him that much of do i just have my defenses up? i dont know. im effffing sleeepy. been up since like 8am maybe ill call it a night right now. hahaha woow.
okk much love i need to go to the gym and shiettttttttt.
halloweeen was much fun. taco bell never forget!!
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